Hello all!
Life, what is it? Please give me a definition of what life is. I am unable to identify mine. I don't understand what the meaning of life is. This saddens me, I am trying to find a way to get through this dreadful mind of mine. Will the people around me help me with my problems? Should I open up to them? I don't know anymore. Whenever I am around people, I feel hatred and jealously. I know I shouldn't be thinking about that, but it keeps haunting me. Another thing that keeps haunting me is listening to other people's opinion, I shouldn't be doing that as well. This world is scary, I feel lost no matter where I go. Should I grow up to an adult already. Ha! Who am I kidding. I am already at that adult age, but down deep inside, I am still a kid at heart. School and work. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it. I cut down my social life. I have no one to talk to as much anymore. It's me, myself, and I questioning each other what is going on.
I got a taste of heaven. Well I guess you can describe it that way. I went to the college I love, got suspended due to academic probation. I don't understand how I went from a 3.8 GPA student to a 1.22 GPA in college. I never went out partying, I stayed in my dorm studying my ass off. I don't understand. I felt like all the happy times were a dream. I thought it was too good to be true to be having such a great life. Who would have thought I fell hard from the top.
So now I am climbing back up to the top again. This time there is little of social life so all of my life goes to work and school. I hardly see my friends like I use to. I don't have the weekends to go hangout with my friends or family. I use my days to spend it at the library until 10pm doing homework and studying. I feel like this is a ridiculous way to spend life. I have no motivations anymore. My life consist of work, school, and sleepless nights.
Kay-Bee deshita! ;D
